10 on 10 | or why you shouldn't invite me to projects

do i SUCK?! like completely and totally SUCK?! is it the fucking 13th?! why do i continue to set myself up for failure?!?! back in august, before my kid turned 7 (7?!?!?), i knew we were planning to head to NH to hit up storyland for big dude's birthday. last year's birthday slipped through the cracks financially and i was feeling major guilt to make this year AWESOME. but, and i'm sure this will shock you guys, i left it all to the last minute. and my kid's birthday is on labor day weekend. needless to say that on THURSDAY, when this all hit me, i panicked big time. luckily, or miraculously, i was able to find a little cottage/motel reasonably priced and close to storyland. the planets were aligning, this was happening.

but before all that, i had planned for this trip to be my 10 on 10 post. i have a traveling soul and when i'm stationary for too long my mind and heart wander to far away places and i long to just pick up my camera, my kids, my husband and run to the farthest corners of the earth. for now, new hampshire was going to have to do. this trip sent a little alarm bell to the artist in me. and i'm so lucky that mister chris, the husband, is so supportive. so when i say "HOLY SHIT THE LIGHT! CAN WE PULL OVER?!?! PLEASE!? PLEASE?! JUST FOR A SECOND?!?!" he and the boys totally oblige.

this our family only vacation (which was two days mind you. we broke folk find two days away a freaking dream!) was a first and meant so much more than just heading up to storyland. this last year has been one of the hardest my husband and i have faced as a couple. and i'm not going to lie, about 3-4 months ago, shit.got.real. looking ahead to fall and the start of school felt like enough to suffocate me. there was a whole big bang where everything hit the fan, and then my husband reminded me, and himself, why he married me and why we started this family and this life. a lot of hard fucking work was done. so to see us here. to look at these images. it gives me a deep happiness that is beyond words and it swells inside me and makes me want to make everything about our life better.

and oh yeah. it's like WAY more than 10 pictures long.

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