cape cod family photographer


i came back to photography out of desperation. our family was struggling financially and i was just...struggling. i needed something for myself, but i couldn't stand the thought of going back to nannying, retail, food services. i had never once chosen to go forth with something for the sheer fact that i enjoyed it. i was sick of hearing myself whisper to people with DLSRs how much i wish i could have one too. how much i longed to be documenting with more than my point and shoot. i could never convey why it made a difference, and i suppose it doesn't. maybe it just did, for me, then. my time spent with this craft has taught me a lot. when i first got my camera i thought i had to know all the actions and have the cutest blog and find the best font to type my name across an image that no one in their right mind would give a shit about having or stealing or publishing. i realized, i guess, at some point, that i was surrounding myself with all the wrong stuff, the wrong people, the wrong expectations of how to live life with this craft. i don't want to have the most evenly lit portraits, i love shadows. i love depth. i love story. i love the raw, real light of any given moment. one of my favorite photogs, Catherine Abegg, recently wrote a post about the why. WHY do we shoot and what do we get out of it? it hasn't left me and i've been letting it simmer ever since. i think i do it because i want to see parts of my children that i feel my parents never saw in me. i want to see the deepest beauty and hopes and dreams that they have in their little bodies. i want to see them stripped down and bare so i can know the best way to love them, to support them, to foster the passions they have within them. i want to connect in a deep, intimate way that i feel i never got to when i was their age. i am fascinated with childhood and family and so it allows me a closeness to it all. and that translates to when i'm shooting for work. i want to see a you that you do not allow yourself to see. that you are afraid to see, to embrace. a beauty and comfort inside of you. i want you to know you have it. when i'm shooting Sheryl and food, i want it to scream that she loves what she is doing, her delicate and patient detail to the placement of each tomato or piece of parsley or dollop of cream. i want to convey her passion for food, the beauty of it and the science.

one photographer i have fallen head over heels for, Deb Schwedhelm, recently posted a video clip of an interview with my absolute favorite photographer, Sally Mann. i have so many concepts i want to explore. i love how she explains why she went after death. see. to see what happens. i have often fantasized about photographing crime scenes. isn't that weird?! i wish more than anything i could tag along with police regularly. and i'm not talking about the Wellesley police. i don't know what i hope to see, or do, or shoot. i just...want to go. i just want to see. i just want to take my camera and go and see what i learn about people and life and death. probably watched too many crime dramas at a young age. har har.

i recently took this image while visiting one of my best friends down on the cape. where she lives. she is my water friend. i have no other friend that is as deeply connected to the water as my friend Erica. her kids are like tadpoles. and know nothing but splashing and flopping in water. they can swim better and are braver in the water than i am. than i may ever be. she is one with the water and her kids are a reflection of the peace, tranquility and safety she feels in it. i have been photographing her and her kids ever since i've known them, almost 4 years. and never have i taken a photo of Erica that i feel is so purely her. for a moment she let her guard down and i saw her. i love this image. all i ever want to see on the other side of the lens is you. who you are, not who you think you should be, wearing what you think you should be wearing, posing how you think you should be posing. just you.

aren't i so super deep and reflective?! isabel

wait for it | wait for it | wait for it...

being patient. not my strong suit. never, ever has been. almost 3 years ago (what?!) when i was pregnant with leo the loin fruit, i met a dear friend in one of those creepy online chat rooms. it was a pregnancy support forum, aka where all the crazy pregnant people go to to talk about obscure food cravings, how much they love/hate sex, who's causing drama at their baby showers and who is going to destroy their child's spirit by either co-sleeping or not co-sleeping. crazy times people, i tell you. and i was totally one of them. well, the novelty of the forum wore off, but it wasn't for nothing. my friend erica and i were brought together by this craziness. she lived out in CA but hails from the cape (of cape cod) and so when our babies were small and fat (and boy were the fat...if only i had the photographic evidence) we met on a beautiful, breezy, summer cape day.

pretty much it was love at first sight and i spent a lot of time driving to the cape that summer. she is who brought milo and his rad parents into my life. good stuff.

so for almost 3 years, i've been whining about how much i wish erica would live on this side of the country. and finally, after waiting and waiting, and being patient, the stars aligned. here for good. i still don't believe it. it won't sink in for a minute. but the best part? little mr. kai, or meeks as he is the companion to meems, his big sister Evie, is three short months old. it pleases me to no end that we will get to watch him grow, and already since i met him for the very first time in CA (pour some out for the photos) he has changed so much.

this is a filler blog. a big old give away blog is coming with instructions on how to win a session with me, and boy am i making it fun! be patient...

until then, here's a little series from some time i spent with Kai last week.

it's hard work hanging out and chatting at the beach. eventually...the breeze, the warmth, the swaddle, win.

seriously. i'm giving away two sessions. so STAY TUNED!

xo isabel

day on the cape | 20 diptychs | friends that are family

took my little rinky dink to the cape. forced myself again. forced myself to think of it as film with little room for post processing. my sister wives. bffs 4-eva. soul mates from anotha motha. i just really love them. and love their kids. and their mens. love em.

the last time i photographed evie and kai was in CA. i lost those photos. felt good to make new ones today, though. and man. what a good, good day. a summer day.

yep. no words, just a lot of love. xo isabel